Reverend Doylo has his sunday sermon, I will have my thursday lesson. Today's lesson has been: listen to yourself.
I am at home now, after a two hours long panick attack that destroyed me while at work. I started trembling, my mind in a cloud, and thought I was going to faint or die. I couldn't breathe and I didn't know what to do. Finally I resolved to call my girlfriend, she told me "get the fuck out of there" but I was scared even to stand, let alone going out and driving home. I was absolutely terrified, but finally managed to get downstairs and to go away.
I'll go back to the firm tomorrow or monday to officially resign.
It's been a tough tough lesson to learn.